Mar 28, 2015



who holds the keys to my heart?
is it You, oh One who crafted my inner parts?

who holds the keys to my heart?

Abba, 
i give You my keys in exchange for Your keys
the keys in the promises of ALL that You are.

"I will give you the keys of the kingdom of heaven; whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven" - Matthew 16:19

Mar 22, 2015



months pass and the colors have yet to fade...

i miss knowing you would be there for a new morning and a rainbow-filled goodnight text. i miss having you for the sunbeams and the days the clouds threaten ash gray. i miss the approaching sound of a white engine calling outside my gate - the impromptu roadventures and the blessing of your company, my unexpected good friend of whom i grew to call bestfriend and thought maybe, just maybe, we were both thinking of "more".

i miss the promise of tomorrows with you.

we promised a lot, do you remember even the ones you didn't mean?
oh, how did it all get so silly?

it still hurts
and it's true when they say the hurting hurts
...i am sorry.

you meant a lot to me.
you mean a lot to me.

i'm not good for you, being too near
i'm not good for me, being too far

and so i need you to let go
eventhough i desperately don't want you to. 

i want the friendship back.
nothing else.

i miss you.
no words could express how much.

Mar 21, 2015


i felt almost ashamed.
like i was intruding on something so precious...

...innocence.
the simplicity of tomorrow.
and just...be.

when did i grow up?

Mar 18, 2015



here's the thing -
i still care for you.

i keep making mistakes.
i keep making these heart-wrenching mistakes with you.

and so i finally pushed you away to see how far the rope goes...

and here's the thing -
i still care for you.

Mar 12, 2015

introvert / extrovert
the extroverted introvert / the introverted extrovert

i can't seem to figure out this person i call "me". 


given, there is within me the thriving joy of being in the company of people and yet, - i find myself falling asleep to exhaustion and more often than not, it follows with the dissecting of everything i said and shouldn't have.




photo by camera shop dude